I’ve recently begun to identify as asexual.

theskiesareblinkingatme:

A heteromantic grey-asexual to be exact.

Honestly, I feel really good about it.

I mean, I’ve had boyfriends, and the romantic parts of the relationship were great, but I knew something was different because I never felt attracted to them sexually. Making out for me was just ” going through the motions”. I never felt anything that every made me go” I definitely want to go further with this person.” With my most recent bf, I pretty much forced myself to try and enjoy making out, and I felt horrible every time cause I had to lie and pretend  I was enjoying it as much as he was. I broke up with my last boyfriend, not only because he was rather clingy and his love boarded on “obsessive”,at least for me, but even when we would sit on the couch together, cuddled up, I actually hated it sometimes, and I’d only do it because I knew he liked being close to me. I mean I like being cuddled sometimes, but when I need my space, I NEED MY SPACE. And making out with him was never really…wow, you know? 

I broke up with him, mostly because I didn’t feel right knowing that he honestly felt more strongly about me than I did him, and that I had pretty much decided I wasn’t planning on having sex with him.

After talking with my best friend, she told me she thought I may be asexual, and I think that’s when the possibility actually made sense to me. I had heard about it, and after researching it, as I still am, I feel pretty comfortable knowing that there’s nothing wrong with me.